Frustration

 This will be cross posted to 

 and is about my scale/weight issues, so if you don’t want to read, you do not have to.  I just need to vent.   

So I have been working out seriously for over a month and have been doing my best to eat as best as I can.  Yes, I have had slip ups, but this is the real world, and I am not a millionaire where I can afford a personal chef.

Anyways the scale has not moved downward at all….. in fact it has trended upward as high up as 207.  Which on my 5’2" frame is not good.  It also is frustrating with all the spinning and walking and ellipticalling I have been doing.   So I have been asking various people their advice and this is what I have received.

My primary care doctor:  You are doing everything right, it will happen.

My neuro:  If you want to lose weight eat 1000 calories or less and do not eat after 5.

My personal trainer:  more weight training and pilates

The trainer who ran the Gravity class I took last night:  It takes about 3 months to see results so be patient.  She suggested weight watchers and not to go below 1200 calories.  She asked if I considered surgery.  I explained the optifast that I had done before and how I was on the 900 calorie diet and that I was not a surgical candidate; I do not weigh enough.  She asked if I have had my thyroid checked and I explained how I have, and how it is checked regularly.  I explained I am the healthiest obese person—all my tests are always fine and other than my stupid headaches…..I’m fit as a fiddle.

The trainer who did my stretch orientation today:  It takes about 3 months to see results.  She doesn’t like weight watchers.  She asked me how many calories I ate yesterday and I told her 1230.  She said maybe I’m not eating enough.  

So……. I have no idea what to think anymore.  When I lost weight before I saw results right away.  I am feeling so frustrated right now and I understand why I have stopped working out and eating right b/c I have really been working hard and to watch the scale go UP!?!?!?! No wonder I have quit before.  

I know with PCOS it is harder to lose weight and I didn’t expect this to be easy.  What I did expect was to actually see the scale move down regularly even if it were a pound a week or every week at least that is PROGRESS.  

I mean it is good that I feel better (minus the headaches) and less tired (somewhat) so that is a good benefit.  I can do things I didn’t think I could do before.  Spinning for an hour, sprinting on the treadmill and whatnot and those are good things; great even.  But I want to be able to do more and do them easier.  I want to be able to go to yoga and not have my stomach and chest in the way.  I want to go out and not feel like I am being laughed at or judged.  

I wanted to be under 200 by my birthday but I am not sure that is going to happen and it makes me sad b/c it was a realistic goal to lose 5 pounds by Oct 8th (starting at end of August)  . . . . 

Anyways even if you don’t have any advice to offer words of encouragement would really help me right now since I am feeling so down about this.  

Thanks for reading.  <3

 

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  1. sodiumbisulfite
    02/10/2009 / 23:56

    First of all, the fact that someone even suggested surgery to you appalls me beyond belief. I think that was really rude, and being someone who has spent time with you, I really do not think you look as bad as you think you do. You are beautiful. There is nothing wrong with some curves.
    I know that working out a lot makes us feel like we should see the scale drop, bt in reality it won't move for a few months (seriously) because you are building up muscle, which weighs more than fat.
    I dont think WW is a bad idea. I think the important thing, is to follow it using REAL foods, like fruits, veggies, yogurt, and meats INSTEAD of using WW microwave meals, etc. That way it will be easier to get the hang of how much Real Food you should be eating. WW is all about portion control when you do it that way, which I think is a good thing. It's mainly about gaining healthy habits.
    I wouldnt get discouraged. The fact that you feel better doing this, is a GREAT thing. The numbers will go down eventually. But remember, the most important thing is that YOU feel good about what youre doing. And it seems like you do for the most part. So keep it up! &hearts

  2. cindy_lou_who8
    03/10/2009 / 01:27

    Yeah….. I was kind of surprised when she said that last night. No one has ever suggested it to me before. Had I not been focused on the workout and my form and everything I think I would have cried.
    My primary asked me if I had thought about it, and I told her yes I had thought about it and looked into it and found that I didn't weigh enough. And she said GOOD you do NOT want to have weight loss surgery. She is not model thin herself, and since I have lost weight before she is confident I can do it again. I know surgery is an important part of weight loss for some people and I am not knocking it. If I weighed a lot more I would definitely consider it.
    I hope I see results. When I lost 85 pounds before I don't remember having to wait so long to lose a few pounds; I saw results immediately. But I suppose I had never worked out before back then, where as now I have been active, though not consistent.
    Thanks for listening and being supportive. It means a lot…… <3

  3. sodiumbisulfite
    03/10/2009 / 01:31

    I wasn't trying to knock surgery as a weight loss option for some people..I was just thinking that was mighty rude of her to say that to you considering I think it's fairly obvious you are nowhere near weighing that much.
    I'm confident you can lose weight. And I am confident eventually I will too. I think the key at this point is just having patience. Im sorry I havent been blogging about it. Ive been really busy lately…but I'll try to be more proactive about it so you arent doing this alone &hearts

  4. cindy_lou_who8
    03/10/2009 / 01:47

    I know you weren't saying anything against it. But you did make me think about what she said. I am now like WOW OMG she said that!
    Thank you for saying that, some days I feel as big as a house, especially after seeing that picture of me from the Jimmy Fund walk.
    I can't wait to read your posts! 🙂

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