I was feeling good about myself and everything yesterday and had big ideas and dreams of a positive post today. But now the end of the day has come, and those ideas are gone.
I’m just frustrated. I’m frustrated b/c even with low carb, counting calories, or Tony Ferguson shakes I’m not losing weight. In fact, I’m either the same or more every time I weigh.
I’m angry at myself for getting this far behind again.
I’m frustrated b/c it hurts to walk (foot and shoulder) which means working out seems like a far off place.
I hate being jealous of my girlfriend who gets skinnier by the day.
I hate that I had surgery partially to make working out easier, and then never worked out afterwards.
I hate feeling this way.
I know the only way to overcome it is to change with healthy habits and a positive attitude. If only my heart and desire could make the rest of me do it.