The difference between you and me

I’ve always been the glass is half empty kinda girl.  Which is probably why I don’t get as much blog traffic as I imagine I should.  Who wants to listen to Debbie Downner all day?  I guess since I am usually her, I generally don’t.  Or maybe it is how you look at it . . . .and I just always see the dim side of  life for whatever reason

Anyways, I read a lot of blogs.  And a lot of the bloggers out there have been having terrible times ranging from a bad cold to financial trouble to medical conditions that aren’t so fun to have to deal with.  And I’m here whinging about my “sad, pathetic life,” most of which has been brought on by one person, me. No one else forced bad food into my mouth or turned off the alarm or didn’t check their bank balance (while in my defense I also didn’t burgle my own apartment, let’s be fair)

The difference between them and me is how they see it and how they DEAL with it.  I just do not know how to cope.  Period.  Full stop.  I never see the good in the bad.  I always think EVERYTHING is a bloody crisis.  And I keep reading . . . .and it dawns on me that none of them spend a month in bed sick, carrying on about how they are dying and are never going to get better, not doing anything about it, not dealing with everyday life, not following up with their responsibilities.   None of them stopped working out or wanting to work out.  They still pushed on and perservered and found strength in their trials.

 

Why didn’t I do that?

 

Me? No, I just dialed in for take out and ate brownies and not good for me foods and layed around and moaned and whined like it was going out of style.

It’s the same tune I’ve been singing my whole life, I just don’t know how to change the melody.  How do you start over again and make sure this time is a success?   How do you stop negative thoughts?  How do you not eat the brownie?  How do you not whine and complain to the only person in your life that you can talk to every day?  (not that I don’t talk to more than one person, and not that I don’t have other friends, I just mean literally, I have one person here in Glasgow I know (again my own fault)) How do you get up out of bed when the alarm goes off when there is no real reason to bother?

 

How do you get up and start living the life you were meant to have?

 

*please forgive today’s maudlin tone.  It’s the 12th.*

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  1. 12/07/2011 / 22:03

    You need to surround yourself with positive people. Make new friends who are positive. Go do things(free) that make you smile. GET OFF the couch and find someone to go these places with. Get OUT of the house. I think your biggest obstacle is NOT having other friends there. Talking to friends vt.ia texting/emailing can hold you so long…we humans need humans to talk to. So GET OUT and join something so you meet someone. NOW.

    Believe me..its not easy putting the happy face on when things are so gloomy on the personal front….but you have to find something to fill your tank. What fills your tank? Filling your tank so you ‘feel’ happy and fulfilled and joyful. And you have to practice NOT talking negative. Its something that you CAN learn. You just have to practice. Its like riding a bike….practice practice practice till its habit.
    You have to WANT it bad enough to do it. How BAD do you want it?

    • 18/07/2011 / 17:58

      I will have to get back to you when this paper is done. I can only concentrate fully on one thing at a time LOL

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