It has been all doom and gloom here lately, I know. Believe me I know. The stress has been killing me. I’ve had to rely on the Valium, which I had been doing pretty good without doing. But I am glad I still have it as a backup option.
And thank you all for your kind words and well wishes and thoughts. It’s meant a lot. <3
Today we met with the international student advisor to discuss the issues we have (mostly financial). As I had even said at the outset of the meeting, I was fine if I didn’t get into the Ph.D. program. I honestly didn’t think I would, given my not so great grades this year here. Granted I’ve had a good reason. It isn’t every year your mum passes away. While I should’t use it as an excuse, well I just haven’t exactly put the effort in since. I’ve been upset.
So we have some options financially- we can apply for a hardship loan and lucky for us they still have one meeting. So I need to fill out an application and get my advisor to sign off and find some documents. But this should keep us afloat for the next 2 months.
Because in September I will get my new batch of student loans. For the Ph.D. program I got accepted into unconditionally. 🙂 Yes I got in. Unconditionally. I can’t really believe it, actually. So the next three years I will be researching bullying. Not sure how I plan on doing that and working on the book I started, but I’m sure I can figure it out LOL!
So hopefully we will get the loan and I can spend August worrying about me and working on me. Working out daily. Looking for a part time job. Finding a place to volunteer. Perhaps finding a new flat, as we’ve just run out of room in our lovely, but small one bedroom flat.