I’m still mega stressed out, which is why I haven’t really posted. Nothing has immediately changed, other than MORE stress, so I didn’t feel the need to keep carrying on about it.
I’m just trying to keep on keeping on, which is hard b/c half the time I want to eat everything and the other half my stomach is in knots and I feel ill.
It’s funny, a year ago I was nervous, but not to this degree. Maybe b/c most of my energies were on healing from surgery IDK. I mean I am going home, a place I know and lived most of my life, where all my family and most of my friends are. It shouldn’t be a nerve wrecking experience, yet it is. I think mostly it is because who *isn’t* there that is giving me this stress. That and the financial issues that I will be dealing with, and while I’ve already made some good attempts at dealing with them, it’s still stressful. That and the no job thing.
I’ve never been good at the whole relaxing thing and add in the anxiety issues I have, this has just been a nightmare. I really hope things can only get better and not worse.
And I hope to get back to more happy, positive, healthy posts as soon as this crisis is over.