I’m stressed out. It’s hard being back. It’s hard having no money even more than being back. It means I can’t do anything; I haven’t seen any of my friends since I got back, and that would make it a little better if I had/could be able to. I want to see people but I don’t want them to have to go out of their way to see me with the cost of gas now. That and I can’t do anything but sit and talk somewhere b/c I can’t pay my own way, and right now that really bothers me. I don’t want to be a burden.
I’ve applied for jobs. I’ve had no calls. I’ve applied for health benefits, unemployment, and free cell service and I am still waiting to hear on all of them. 3-5 weeks for unemployment, benefits will probably take as long, and I’m not sure about the phone. I’ve been off the US grid for a year so… I am not sure how long things like this will take, or if they will take at all.
The main issue is finding a job and being able to get to said job. I could definitely find a p/t job if I was in the city, but I can’t do that until I have a place to live, which means I need money, hence a vicious circle.
That’s pretty much it right now. I miss Scotland. I miss the life I was leading, even if I wasn’t doing much. It was my life and I was independent and could come and go as I please. I miss that feeling.