In my life I wear many hats. There is the teacher (former, rather) hat that I still wear when I automatically correct grammar of blog posts and tweets.
There is the blogger hat that I wear rather unsuccessfully, but considering the readership (or lack thereof, and whatnot) it makes me feel like posting is something I need to do when I want to do it, not because I feel obligated to.
Then there is the fangirl hat; that hat seems to be the one worn most often as of late (and yes it is a deer stalker LOL). I’d say I was embarrassed about this part of my life, but I’m not. I’ve spent too much of my life worrying about what other people have to say about things that I like and how when I like something I like it with the intensity of a hundred burning suns. It’s my life, and if that is how I want to spend my downtime, well that is how it is going to be.
Then there is the student hat, the one I should be wearing most of all right now. I have to say I am doing a bit of a rubbish job at it, but damn well deserve a BAFTA once again, after giving a convincing performance about what I’ve done of late. I mean I have done things. I’ve read 3+ books. I’ve read some articles. I’ve determined what kind of questionnaire I am going to use and have almost finished my letter to the LEA. There is the 2000 words I’ve written on an article on Columbine too, but that doesn’t really fall under the school work umbrella. It was more of what I wanted to do, not HAD to do. Too bad reading all of the V.I Warshawski novels in 2 weeks or all the Johnlock fics on AO3 can be added to that list.
Anyways, it has been a pretty tame week or so since I last published. Steph and I are doing low carb which is SO much fun. If I have any good results after 2 weeks or so I will discuss it then, but I’d rather not get into it right now b/c it is what it is. I suppose it is better than eating pasta every night, but not by much. (To be honest I really am not having any food cravings; it is more the lack of variety of food given my picky habits.)
The only other thing that has been going on is the recurrence of the headaches (prior to the low carb) once again. I really had hoped that it was done and dusted given I had been feeling somewhat better, but that would be a no. (Hence a lot of the reason why school work is pushed aside to pleasure reading, b/c I don’t need to retain/think about it or note take etc.) I have an appointment for next week but whether or not that does anything (probably not) it means we will be on to neuro #7. You’d think after 6 years this wouldn’t be tiring. It’s funny in some ways, but in others it makes me want to scream.
There was an article on boston.com last week about surgery for treatment of headaches and how people who are really desperate have turned to that. I was appalled at the comments on it saying that it is all in their head (ha) or that they should take an asprin and suck it up, etc. You know what, you have no fucking idea what it is like to have a headache EVERY FUCKING DAY unless you actually are going through the same thing, so please don’t be all sanctimonious about it telling people to stop whining is NOT A SOLUTION. Really. It is real pain. Just like any other pain or illness. It is real. It isn’t made up. Believe me if there was an off button I would have shut it off SIX YEARS AGO. Really, the lack of knowledge and compassion out there is astonishing.
At any rate, it’s time for some more chicken and veggies and this book I’m reading isn’t going to finish itself.
Oh and for those of you inclined, tomorrow is David Tennant’s birthday. If you can contribute to the David Tennant birthday drive to support Headway Essex (David is a patron) it would be great. Great charity and cause and it is worth it to know that money is being used to help those in need. (I get nothing from doing this, other than the pleasure of helping out and spending time tweeting about it.) 🙂