As part of the August Healthy Living/Fitness Blogger Writing Challenge, this is the fourth post in a month long series of posts.
How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Well, 2 years ago I was in Boston sweating my ass off, doped up on Vicodin, as I recovered from breast reduction surgery. You should all be very glad that there are no pictures of me at this time 2 years ago. 🙂 So I can definitely say that my tits are smaller now than they were 2 years ago. 🙂
I had surgery on a Monday, was home Tuesday, and back to work on Thursday. I know that most people take 2+ weeks off after this kind of procedure, but if I didn’t work, I didn’t make any money. Luckily I was teaching and could do it seated. My supervisor was great about it, and so were the kids. I had taught 90% of them before and knew them and they knew me, so it was all good. I miss teaching. That’s a big change, 2 years down.
Many things are still the same. I am still struggling with my weight. I am still experiencing chronic daily headaches. I’m still derailed by anxiety on a daily basis. I’m still rubbish with managing my finances.
Some things are different. I’m back in Scotland working on my PhD. At this time last summer I was in a dark place. I was very depressed about how things had turned out and how upset I was that I had to go back home.
The biggest thing that is different is that I don’t have my mum anymore. I miss her so much. That’s the hardest part.
I am still me, but I’m a little more bitter, a little more hardened, a lot more anxious.
I’ve been trying to get healthier (but I could say that I’ve been doing that for years and never quite getting there). In two years I hope I can look back at this beginning and finally have an ending, where I’m a good 50+ pounds lighter, and a whole lot happier. I hope I can look back on this in 2 years and see a lot of changes for the better.