I should be doing everything but blogging right now. I have this (never ending) stats assignment to finish, emails to return, a flat to clean; dozens of other things I’m sure. Right now, all I can think about is how not into Christmas I am this year.
I’m just not. Our Christmas tree still has no lights, and sits sadly by the window. I haven’t bought one present yet, and I’m only sending cards to my nieces. I don’t know why, but I am just so not into the holiday spirit. Maybe it’s the lack of festive lights/trees/etc in my area. Maybe it’s the lack of cheer I experience when I’m out in the world. Maybe it’s the fact that I have 100 things to do and none of them are holiday related. Maybe it’s the constant pain I’m in. Maybe I’m just getting old. I don’t know.
I really should be more excited about Christmas. For once, I am not stressed to the max about money right now. Usually a month before I get my next loan payment I’m counting pennies. Despite getting off on the wrong foot in September, I’m not freaking out over how I’m going to eat the first 2 weeks of January. I can buy presents. I can drink all the lattes. But something is missing, and I just feel like the bloody Grinch.
Maybe I just need some vitamin D?
Hopefully I will feel more holiday inspired once this assignment is complete.
I can hope.