Lost in my own head

Yesterday was long run day.  Well, what will be long run day once I get a few more weeks into my training plan.  Had it not been so miserable out yesterday, I could have gone on longer, like last Sunday.  (Only without the getting lost bit.)

Yes, I got lost because at 38 I still can't read a map.

Yes, I got lost because at 38 I still can’t read a map.

However, I was running without having had any coffee, and the cold air wasn’t waking me up, and being in my own head space, well just was not good.  I had to stop several times to keep from losing it completely.   I tried to sing along with my running playlist (I think I need some new tunes) but all I could think about was Molly and how much I missed her and how angry I was at myself for not realising something was wrong sooner and not spending more time with her while I could.   Being in the flat right now, it’s so empty.  But being outside the flat doesn’t give me a reprieve from my thoughts either.  This is hard and it sucks.

I did finish my run (in some new kit that I got to try to cheer myself up [the hat I got isn’t on the website- I will have to take a picture when I wear it again]) and even got my first day of yoga in for the #21daysofyogachallenge.  Oh, and as this run was over the 5K distance, I finished the Virtual Runner race for the month.

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I think I’m getting faster? Still so damn slow though. 🙁

This week I have a few runs planned and also my first day of floor barre class.  I also need to get cracking on writing, (I *only* have 8K to write ha ha ha I’m screwed) but all I feel I can do is wallow in sadness.

*sigh*

2 Comments

  1. 10/01/2014 / 21:53

    It’s no consolation, but cats do not show pain or injury until they are really sick, so spotting things earlier is very, very difficult. Hugs, hugs and more hugs
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